God if you are listening. Write me letter or a send me a card I will even take an email, but please God please tell me, “What am I supposed to do with my life?”
At the ripe old age of 45 you would think by now I would know what I am going to do with my life. Heck I graduate in May and I still don’t know what that means. I am constantly asked what I will do after graduation. Do I have any prospects? Are you going to become a Religion teacher or preach?” are some of the most common questions I get asked. Many are confused as to what someone like me would do with a Religious Studies Major and an Information Technology Minor.
I can’t say that I blame them for their confusion. Some days I am confused myself. God gave me over 17 years in Information Technology field and then turned my heart toward God and religion. What does a person do with that? I am currently being approached for Information Technology jobs, but I am hesitant to interview. I am not sure I want to go back into the corporate world. On one hand I would have benefits and be able to take care of my family, but on the other hand I would be completely miserable and it is not where my heart is.
When opportunities like this arise it just confuses me even more. Take a job that would secure my family’s financial stability, or follow my dreams? Almost brings me to tears when I write this. The biggest question is “Are these Dreams I have part of God’s plan?” What if I am just “blowing smoke” and it’s not meant to be. God, please, please write me a letter, send me a card or an email and tell me what your plan is. Give me a heads up. Let me know how I am doing. Tell me please………. tell me if I am on the right path.
My heart is in serving others, giving back to the community, and showing others that through Faith, Hope, Courage, Strength, Inspiration and Most of all LOVE anything is possible. I enjoy sharing my story and showing up and being present. I smile from ear to ear when I talk about how God’s Love as changed my life. I want to pick others up when they are down and connect people who need each other. I want people to find their Faith and have a personal relationship with God. As their Faith must be their Own.
But I also want to know I am on the right path. My boys and husband tell me I am and I appreciate their support; but they don’t see all the bills pilling up and they don’t understand what it takes to crank out a dream without any money to back it. They only feel the sacrifices of surviving and struggling someone else’s dream.
So what do I do God? Stay on the current path or take a right turn and get back into Information Technology field full time? Do I continue to struggle and survive, or do I take a right turn and make some money for a while? If the decisions in my life just affected me it would be a no brainer. I am a survivor. I would stay on the path and hope for the best. Damn life is so hard sometimes. It would be some much easier if I could just pick up the phone and make a call to God.
Luv, Luv,
Julie
